I’m scared. There’s a fae, not in my system, in someone else’s. And she’s scaring me. She and Orion got confrontational, and ever since I’ve been on edge, and then the other day when I was about to leave a friends house cos I felt an episode coming on, she came out. She told me to have fun. She knew. I knew. And the host doesn’t.

I don’t trust myself, but I’ve never trusted others. And yet I want to trust this person, the host. But with that fae inside her…I have to lock my door, I have to keep my distance, I have to be alert. And I am waiting for something bad to happen. She doesn’t know I’m old fae, she doesn’t know what we all are. We’re back to when it was day and night only. She’s new, and young. And I am so done with this bullshit, I want to feel safe, I want to feel sane, but I am….scared.

It’s bad enough another person inside you trying to kill you, when someone inside a friend hates you too…

I’m so close to leaving.